“Inaction breeds doubt and fear..."

"...Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.”

Okay, fine, I'll admit it: lately I have been inexplicably insecure about my relationship. After yesterday's confusion and ensuing conversations with Dubs and Cec, I realized that I am doing myself (and Bear) a disservice by being so hermit-ty and overly domestic; in essence I am cutting myself off from most of my friends, whose support and distraction I desperately need. Honestly, I think I've gotten to the point where I am resenting him for my own choices, and that's not fair to him (or me.) That hermit is not the fun-loving, sociable girlfriend that I was when he left, and I am sure as Hell not going to let it be the girlfriend he returns to. Actually, at my previous rate of socialization I would be a needy, grumpy Pigeon mess for the foreseeable future and that idea is terrifying.

So, last night I went to Dubs for a little "ladies night," tonight it's the GBF's for an International potluck dinner party (I finally get to try my hand at a Turkish appetizer!), tomorrow I have an appointment with my tattoo guy to touch up some work I've had done in the past year and next week is booked up with Trivia Night, a massage and then a pizza date to catch up with one of my yelp friends, not to mention I've promised to hang out with the Madre to celebrate Mother's Day. Also, I recently purchased my tickets for SAM Remix at the beginning of June, so I'm steadily filling up my future social calendar.

It feels good to be back.

"Dear Fear,

Suck it, I'm too busy for this sh*t.

Regards,
Alyson"

For those of you who are watching out for my post about the Striptease class - stay tuned!