This is for you Bear.
Now if only India's record company would actually let Youtube broadcast the official videos, the GBF and I would be a lot happier.
***Oops. that didn't last very long, did it? TURKEY: YouTube banned, again, over sex-scandal video
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Gone, but not forgotten...
Thursday, October 28, 2010
As in, my presence on this blog lately and my boyfriend. Thankfully, neither absence is permanent.
Shortly after my most recent post earlier this month, Bear confirmed the date for his return trip to Istanbul (leaving exactly one month before our one year anniversary.) I was basically left with just over 2 weeks to get in all the Fall festivities and snuggle time I could manage. We went go carting, we went to TurkFest, we went to The Farm, we carved a pumpkin (his first jack-o-lantern,) drank a lot of tea and watched the rest of The Wire Season 3 together. It was pretty darn glorious and I was feeling like I was definitely mentally prepared to be away from my guy for a few months.
Oh, I was wrong. (But at least this time I didn't put him through 2 weeks of being all weepy beforehand!)
It's been a rough week. Realizing that not only did my boyfriend leave he took my best friend with him was tough (and eye-opening,) and work has been a little crazy with the impending ownership changes...I was ready for the weekend by Tuesday afternoon and feeling totally unprepared and uninspired for what is usually my favorite holiday EVER - Halloween.
Finally yesterday I got to talk to Bear on the phone, which was a huge help in raising my spirits. We'd only been able to email and that is honestly one of my least favorite ways of communicating (most likely because I am totally impatient.) Last night I got to visit with my favorite homegirls AND my favorite 'mos and tonight I'll probably get to see my dude on Skype, so I'm hoping to be mostly cleared of my funk by this weekend.
Still, I have 2 classes starting next week and a somewhat busy schedule - it probably wouldn't hurt to stay in, right?
Shortly after my most recent post earlier this month, Bear confirmed the date for his return trip to Istanbul (leaving exactly one month before our one year anniversary.) I was basically left with just over 2 weeks to get in all the Fall festivities and snuggle time I could manage. We went go carting, we went to TurkFest, we went to The Farm, we carved a pumpkin (his first jack-o-lantern,) drank a lot of tea and watched the rest of The Wire Season 3 together. It was pretty darn glorious and I was feeling like I was definitely mentally prepared to be away from my guy for a few months.
Oh, I was wrong. (But at least this time I didn't put him through 2 weeks of being all weepy beforehand!)
It's been a rough week. Realizing that not only did my boyfriend leave he took my best friend with him was tough (and eye-opening,) and work has been a little crazy with the impending ownership changes...I was ready for the weekend by Tuesday afternoon and feeling totally unprepared and uninspired for what is usually my favorite holiday EVER - Halloween.
Finally yesterday I got to talk to Bear on the phone, which was a huge help in raising my spirits. We'd only been able to email and that is honestly one of my least favorite ways of communicating (most likely because I am totally impatient.) Last night I got to visit with my favorite homegirls AND my favorite 'mos and tonight I'll probably get to see my dude on Skype, so I'm hoping to be mostly cleared of my funk by this weekend.
Still, I have 2 classes starting next week and a somewhat busy schedule - it probably wouldn't hurt to stay in, right?
Who needs it anyway?
Friday, August 13, 2010
Trying to plan my 30th birthday is driving me so crazy at the moment that I am incredibly tempted to let the day pass just like any other.
Up until the past week I had been almost excited about it's arrival and now I basically hang my head in defeat, moments from crying in frustration. On the day I intended to send out invites for a small gathering the 2nd weekend of September, I had a disagreement with a few close friends that left me reeling and questioning the ultimate future of those friendships.
At that point, I said to myself (and my boyfriend):"Fuck 'em - I'm going to (adult) Disneyland (aka Vegas)." Being the sweet boyfriend that he is, he said "anything you want aşkim," even though in fact it turned out to be likely that I would be getting nothing but a damn headache.
A few days later MM (MaSKott's Manager) tells me that they are working on another show in Seattle for that weekend. Sooo, my birthday gets bumped and I start looking at other travel dates. Then a few days after that I realize that tickets are just plain out of my budget, since I am saving to move in a few months. So, bummed once again, I try to start planning something small in town. Though it's almost a month away, it's a busy travel season and my friends can occasionally be hard to pin down (and I'm a Virgo - it just plain stresses me out to not be able to plan my shiz in advance.)
Still waiting on word about the show, my choices are basically limited to 2 things that aren't really what I originally wanted to do (Saturday picnic in the park - sounds lovely, right? Friends, sandwiches, sun, maybe a little badminton or volley ball?): I can have a dinner party on a Friday after I spend the whole day working then would have to rush to get ready and fight traffic to the Island and pray that it's not a huge hassle for my friends (along with a few other logistical issues,) or do a picnic on Sunday and pray that I have fun but that I'm also in decent enough condition on to work on Monday, which is typically my busiest and most stressful day (and one I cannot take off.) And then there's the precarious "invitation situation..."
At this point, I'd rather do absolutely nothing than worry about it anymore. That means I get to stay 29, right??
Up until the past week I had been almost excited about it's arrival and now I basically hang my head in defeat, moments from crying in frustration. On the day I intended to send out invites for a small gathering the 2nd weekend of September, I had a disagreement with a few close friends that left me reeling and questioning the ultimate future of those friendships.
At that point, I said to myself (and my boyfriend):"Fuck 'em - I'm going to (adult) Disneyland (aka Vegas)." Being the sweet boyfriend that he is, he said "anything you want aşkim," even though in fact it turned out to be likely that I would be getting nothing but a damn headache.
A few days later MM (MaSKott's Manager) tells me that they are working on another show in Seattle for that weekend. Sooo, my birthday gets bumped and I start looking at other travel dates. Then a few days after that I realize that tickets are just plain out of my budget, since I am saving to move in a few months. So, bummed once again, I try to start planning something small in town. Though it's almost a month away, it's a busy travel season and my friends can occasionally be hard to pin down (and I'm a Virgo - it just plain stresses me out to not be able to plan my shiz in advance.)
Still waiting on word about the show, my choices are basically limited to 2 things that aren't really what I originally wanted to do (Saturday picnic in the park - sounds lovely, right? Friends, sandwiches, sun, maybe a little badminton or volley ball?): I can have a dinner party on a Friday after I spend the whole day working then would have to rush to get ready and fight traffic to the Island and pray that it's not a huge hassle for my friends (along with a few other logistical issues,) or do a picnic on Sunday and pray that I have fun but that I'm also in decent enough condition on to work on Monday, which is typically my busiest and most stressful day (and one I cannot take off.) And then there's the precarious "invitation situation..."
At this point, I'd rather do absolutely nothing than worry about it anymore. That means I get to stay 29, right??
To vent or not to vent?
Thursday, July 15, 2010
That is today's question.
I treasure my privacy almost as much as I pride myself in my honesty, but at this moment I find myself torn between putting my frustrations out here for sympathy, input, whatever or just eating it and trying to figure it out myself and continuing to stress and fret. I feel like it's always better to talk things through, but the imperative word is "talk" - right now I'm just stewing.
Grr.
Well, whatever. It gives me a good enough reason to chat with the GBF and hang with Dubs tonight before I run some of my stress off.
I treasure my privacy almost as much as I pride myself in my honesty, but at this moment I find myself torn between putting my frustrations out here for sympathy, input, whatever or just eating it and trying to figure it out myself and continuing to stress and fret. I feel like it's always better to talk things through, but the imperative word is "talk" - right now I'm just stewing.
Grr.
Well, whatever. It gives me a good enough reason to chat with the GBF and hang with Dubs tonight before I run some of my stress off.
Things I did on my summer vacation (in no specific order):
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Beat my buddy Will A. on 4square...I knew the opportunity would most likely never arise again since he is a 4square master, so I checked in everywhere.
Got too drunk on a Friday at Neighbors (my first visit in probably 6 years - possibly my last for at least another 6.)
All that and a whole lot of nothing...'Twas perfection.
Got too drunk on a Friday at Neighbors (my first visit in probably 6 years - possibly my last for at least another 6.)
Picked the wrong day to visit Alki and get a sunburn: http://westseattleblog.com/2010/06/heavy-police-presence-on-alki but picked up a super cute dress from Coastal that I later wore at the GBF's Birthday Happy Hour:
Missed a minor anniversary with my boyfriend. We spent the day together and had a wonderful time, but both completely spaced on the significance of the date.
Visited the Seattle Art Museum to check out the Andy Warhol media works (neat! added our photo booth photo to the interactive art display) and Kurt Cobain (yawnnnnn) exhibit. Also got this fantastically awful picture of me and him in the porcelain room (I literally LOL'd loudly for a few minutes after taking this):
Attended Artopia then headed downtown for the Seattle Lust Tour with Valentina and Kristi from Shutter Tours (also respectively of Valentina Vitols Studio and Kristi Lloyd Photography - 2 sweet ladies who can take a damn fine photo.) We followed that with wonderful cocktails at Zig Zag Cafe (home of Murray!) with most of our respective beaus and a couple of gals on the tour from Ann Arbor, MI who had run the 2010 Rock n Roll Half Marathon that morning.
Cooked dinner (salmon, finally got it right!) for 8 people, of which I was the ONLY American-born and non-Turkish speaker.
All that and a whole lot of nothing...'Twas perfection.
Let me tell ya 'bout my best friend(s)...
Monday, May 3, 2010
While we're on a roll with how much I love my peeps...An excerpt from a Facebook message thread coordinating a small group of my closest friends for dinner at the GBF's (one of whom works in the brain research industry.):
GBF: T double booked this Thursday so I'll be cooking for you loverly ladies and gents again but at La Casa de DustBall this time. Any special requests / themes?
Me: TURKISH!
D: Something unique from every continent or fresh spring rolls!
Cec: You are so sweet! I don't care really. I'm learning that whatever you make is pretty effing tasty. ♥
Digital: I like the idea of everyone bringing something from a different region, that would be fun! Anyone know what they're makin yet? I'm thinkin maybe a caprese dish myself...
Me: I'm going to do one or two turkish appetizers - one cheesy and one veggie.
Z: i'll do the ice cream and champagne/fruit thing for dessert. what time?
Cec: What is 'Needed' I can bring that. I'm coming over right after work (I get out at 6:30), so I won't have much time to make anything...What time is this happening?
GBF: I'll have to surprise you all, I have no idea what I'm making yet.
A: I'm in the same boat as Cecilli with the work/time constraints, so not sure what to bring...I know booze is always needed.
Z: yes! booze! i'm almost out of money until friday so all i can bring is the champagne that will go into dessert.
GBF: Ya'all can start coming over at seven.
Cec: Word to all that was stated. I'm going to bring fancy beer. It's fancy damn it!!
GBF: It would be fancier if on your lunch break you made little bow ties outta tin foil and glued one to each bottle. Just sayin'.
A: I want to make a fan page to "like" Dusty's idea of Fancy.
GBF: Okay, A gets the captain's chair tomorrow.
Cec: I can make a bow tie out of brains...but it wouldn't last long...at all.....Or a couple bottles of wine. I mean it's Thursday and all.
GBF: Is it wrong that I kinda want to see the brain bowties?
GBF: T double booked this Thursday so I'll be cooking for you loverly ladies and gents again but at La Casa de DustBall this time. Any special requests / themes?
Me: TURKISH!
D: Something unique from every continent or fresh spring rolls!
Cec: You are so sweet! I don't care really. I'm learning that whatever you make is pretty effing tasty. ♥
Digital: I like the idea of everyone bringing something from a different region, that would be fun! Anyone know what they're makin yet? I'm thinkin maybe a caprese dish myself...
Me: I'm going to do one or two turkish appetizers - one cheesy and one veggie.
Z: i'll do the ice cream and champagne/fruit thing for dessert. what time?
Cec: What is 'Needed' I can bring that. I'm coming over right after work (I get out at 6:30), so I won't have much time to make anything...What time is this happening?
GBF: I'll have to surprise you all, I have no idea what I'm making yet.
A: I'm in the same boat as Cecilli with the work/time constraints, so not sure what to bring...I know booze is always needed.
Z: yes! booze! i'm almost out of money until friday so all i can bring is the champagne that will go into dessert.
GBF: Ya'all can start coming over at seven.
Cec: Word to all that was stated. I'm going to bring fancy beer. It's fancy damn it!!
GBF: It would be fancier if on your lunch break you made little bow ties outta tin foil and glued one to each bottle. Just sayin'.
A: I want to make a fan page to "like" Dusty's idea of Fancy.
GBF: Okay, A gets the captain's chair tomorrow.
Cec: I can make a bow tie out of brains...but it wouldn't last long...at all.....Or a couple bottles of wine. I mean it's Thursday and all.
GBF: Is it wrong that I kinda want to see the brain bowties?
“Inaction breeds doubt and fear..."
Thursday, April 29, 2010
"...Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.”
Okay, fine, I'll admit it: lately I have been inexplicably insecure about my relationship. After yesterday's confusion and ensuing conversations with Dubs and Cec, I realized that I am doing myself (and Bear) a disservice by being so hermit-ty and overly domestic; in essence I am cutting myself off from most of my friends, whose support and distraction I desperately need. Honestly, I think I've gotten to the point where I am resenting him for my own choices, and that's not fair to him (or me.) That hermit is not the fun-loving, sociable girlfriend that I was when he left, and I am sure as Hell not going to let it be the girlfriend he returns to. Actually, at my previous rate of socialization I would be a needy, grumpy Pigeon mess for the foreseeable future and that idea is terrifying.
So, last night I went to Dubs for a little "ladies night," tonight it's the GBF's for an International potluck dinner party (I finally get to try my hand at a Turkish appetizer!), tomorrow I have an appointment with my tattoo guy to touch up some work I've had done in the past year and next week is booked up with Trivia Night, a massage and then a pizza date to catch up with one of my yelp friends, not to mention I've promised to hang out with the Madre to celebrate Mother's Day. Also, I recently purchased my tickets for SAM Remix at the beginning of June, so I'm steadily filling up my future social calendar.
It feels good to be back.
"Dear Fear,
Suck it, I'm too busy for this sh*t.
Regards,
Alyson"
For those of you who are watching out for my post about the Striptease class - stay tuned!
Okay, fine, I'll admit it: lately I have been inexplicably insecure about my relationship. After yesterday's confusion and ensuing conversations with Dubs and Cec, I realized that I am doing myself (and Bear) a disservice by being so hermit-ty and overly domestic; in essence I am cutting myself off from most of my friends, whose support and distraction I desperately need. Honestly, I think I've gotten to the point where I am resenting him for my own choices, and that's not fair to him (or me.) That hermit is not the fun-loving, sociable girlfriend that I was when he left, and I am sure as Hell not going to let it be the girlfriend he returns to. Actually, at my previous rate of socialization I would be a needy, grumpy Pigeon mess for the foreseeable future and that idea is terrifying.
So, last night I went to Dubs for a little "ladies night," tonight it's the GBF's for an International potluck dinner party (I finally get to try my hand at a Turkish appetizer!), tomorrow I have an appointment with my tattoo guy to touch up some work I've had done in the past year and next week is booked up with Trivia Night, a massage and then a pizza date to catch up with one of my yelp friends, not to mention I've promised to hang out with the Madre to celebrate Mother's Day. Also, I recently purchased my tickets for SAM Remix at the beginning of June, so I'm steadily filling up my future social calendar.
It feels good to be back.
"Dear Fear,
Suck it, I'm too busy for this sh*t.
Regards,
Alyson"
For those of you who are watching out for my post about the Striptease class - stay tuned!
She's crafty...
Monday, April 19, 2010
Bear's band, maskott, is filming a music video today.
Me? On a high from the results of my crafting nights with W (the pill box hat was a big hit at the tea party), I am browsing etsy for terrarium kits, a neat glass bottle (for a little surprise gift) and the typical paper goods. Later I will work out, do my dishes, color my hair and hopefully practice my Turkish. Yesterday, I bought a kit to learn how to knit and a book about intarsia (let's just say that someone is getting a scarf for Christmas) and tomorrow I am having the Gay BoyFriend and the Madre over for dinner at Casa De O'Holic...Such a wild and crazy gal I am.
Though Bear voluntarily assures me of my "totally awesome girlfriend" status on a regular basis, some days the disparity between his life and mine is abundantly clear. Today is definitely one that finds me longing for the quiet weekends together spent on my couch with Gizmo and Wilson.
That being said, I've also got some super-secret-squirrel rockstar girlfriend plans in the works as of this weekend, of which I will offer only one tantalizing hint: PASTIES.
Me? On a high from the results of my crafting nights with W (the pill box hat was a big hit at the tea party), I am browsing etsy for terrarium kits, a neat glass bottle (for a little surprise gift) and the typical paper goods. Later I will work out, do my dishes, color my hair and hopefully practice my Turkish. Yesterday, I bought a kit to learn how to knit and a book about intarsia (let's just say that someone is getting a scarf for Christmas) and tomorrow I am having the Gay BoyFriend and the Madre over for dinner at Casa De O'Holic...Such a wild and crazy gal I am.Though Bear voluntarily assures me of my "totally awesome girlfriend" status on a regular basis, some days the disparity between his life and mine is abundantly clear. Today is definitely one that finds me longing for the quiet weekends together spent on my couch with Gizmo and Wilson.
That being said, I've also got some super-secret-squirrel rockstar girlfriend plans in the works as of this weekend, of which I will offer only one tantalizing hint: PASTIES.
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